Monday, November 2, 2009

New month - new motivation

Here we go again....
For the first time in months, I woke up early and got on the treadmill.
My alarm clock went off at 5am, but I turned it off and rolled over to go back to sleep. But the strangest thing happened.

As I was drifting back into sleep, I could have sworn I heard a bell go off. It wasn't a clang, or a ring, or a ding, but more like the sound of a cowbell being hit. Once. I spent the next minute or two contemplating what exactly that noise was, when it occurred to me that I could be contemplating the great mystery while on the treadmill.

I never did get the chance to ponder where exactly sound came from. By the time I got downstairs, laced on my shoes, filled my BPA free water bottle and located my ipod, I was lost in thought about the next twenty minutes. And then I was on the treadmill and consumed with exasperation that I could find nothing good on TV at that hour. Unless you enjoy watching infomercials.

I took it easy today. I have learned not to jump in full-effort after I have been idle for so long. I know myself well enough to know that if I try to exercise like an athlete, I will give up long before I get anywhere.

So now I am experiencing sore legs from the incline. I have a slight headache since I increased my time between wake-up and caffeine intake. I am tired from waking up so early. And I am hungry and eyeing my son's grilled cheese sandwich while he is in gymnastics class. I am weighing the consequences of eating some of his sandwich (read: my son's meltdown) versus staying hungry a little longer. When you love food as much as I do, that is not an easy choice.

I'll wait. My younger son is very...ummmm...vocal about things. He has no problem telling people off, and I really don't want to be publicly berated by a four-year-old. I am just not that hungry.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

A weekend away

I just came back from a weekend away in Canmore with my BFF and two other moms I am happy to call my friends. We had a great time - good food, good laughs, good times, and something that is a real treat to mothers everywhere: hot coffee!

This was the fourth mothers' weekend I had attended and it was soooo nice to get away from MRL (my real life) for a couple of days. I always return re-charged and ready for the next six months of MRL.

But this weekend was sort of cathartic for me. My BFF has lost 25 pounds and she looks fantastic. I am so happy for her, but I am also a bit jealous. I have done nothing about my weight. It was the kick in the pants I needed.

On a side note, I have to make some observations about Calgary. I loved every minute of the 3 years we lived there, but I see the city differently now that we have moved to BC.

I couldn't help thinking that Calgary has lost its sheen. Calgary always seemed to glisten like diamonds. There was money everywhere, cranes populated the skylines and everyone was excited to see the growth.

Now, Calgary seems to be under a pervasive gloom. It has gone from diamonds to coal.

Last October, when I last was on the retreat, Calgary still felt like home. Now, BC is home. I was so relieved to see the green grass, the mountains, the ocean. While flying into Calgary, I had to locate the sun to figure out which direction was north. While flying back into Vancouver, I could recognize the bridges as we flew over them.

Anyways, the moral of the story here is that I have renewed my goal to get fit. I have to do this. Like Calgary, I have lost some of my sparkle and it is time to get it back.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Wow- more than 18 months since my last post

Wow, I cannot believe I have not posted anything for the last year and half. Sadly, there is nothing new to report on the weight loss front.

That should not be the case. We moved to BC a year ago, and I had the best intentions to get moving and enjoy the outdoors and the beautiful scenery. And I did. For the first few months. Then I started enjoying the outdoors from indoors.
It was a very tumultuous year for me. We had issues at school with our youngest and that took an incredible emotional toll on me. I fell apart - both mentally and physically.

All that is past now, and my hubby and I have resolved that we are now the fattest we will ever be. The weight loss journey resumes.